I AM AN IDIOT! And one who NEVER learns!!!! Once, burnt forever shy has no meaning whatsoever for me!  An even life with me being indifferent to most people just doesn’t suit me. I need must go and make the most trivial of them important, important irrespective of their age, stature, wit or lack of  one or all of the abovementioned traits thereof, important to the extent that I give them power over me and then wham!!!! Then you pay the price, and you pay it, and you pay it and you keep on paying it till the next mistake…. Like I said I AM AN IDIOT and it doesnt matter how many times I say it for THAT shall never change.