Appearances- a word which rates right near the top on my to-abolish list if only I had the power. I don’t refer to the physicality of the word but rather then maintaining appearances bit socially! Why the hell must we all pretend to be a big, happy family when we are all dying to kill each other? Why must we smile and frolick as if everything is hokey doeky when its not? Why this persistent uphill struggle to fit the mould? Perfect lives, ideal kids, great marriage, the act pervades our whole lives till the mask we all wear and the reality become melded in some grotesque way impossible to tell apart!

Having said that in case it isn’t obvious I am pissed! Pissed at the way the world operates, pissed with the logic I have used to keep the demons at bay, pissed at playing peace maker, pissed at just everything but specially being me! That said I was forced to baby sit adults (mentally adult?) today and it was a shame seeing up close how our so called leadership behaves in front of goras! School boys telling tales about their rivals to a headmaster who’s patience has been stretched way past the limit is probably the closest I can come to describing it without resorting to obscenities!

I need a long walk, great music to drown in and a frap NOT that I have any of it!