When I was a child I believed in prayers, believed without doubts. I believed that if I prayed hard enough I could lose weight before the next sunrise, top a subject I hated, have rainbows and sunshine if I prayed hard enough and more. I believed till I was 22 and then skepticism and cynicism reared rebelliously , or maybe it was reality intruding. Whatever the case now i raise my hands in prayer intermittently but I lack the total conviction I had of youth or I convince myself halfway that i don't really need whatever I asked for. Self defense some would say, whatever the rationalization, I want the belief back.....and I want it answered....
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So what happened when you were 22? if i am not intruding, that is.
And InshaAllah you'll get the belief back. pray hard for it as well...
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I grew up I guess among other things :) I asked for something like never before and didn't get it.in retrospect I am delighted i didn't , would have been atrocious if I had but somehow after that now either my hands don't go up for prayer or now if they do, I convince myself halfway I don't want what I am asking for......
Ps: let's hope this Ramadan prayers are answered and I get what I want n more :-)
When you are happy & satisfied, but due to your nature of achieving more and moving towards betterment, which could be thorny , you need something to address it.....you need prayers to accomplish your desires.
When you are sad, in grief, your present is gloomy; it is even hard to move a step ahead ... you need prayers to keep the craving of hope up.
Let me add one last reason of putting yourself in prayers , you should pray because you deserve what you desired and because he deserved (only) to be Beseech from.
You need to put true faith in your prayer, no matter they will be accepted or not, your desire shouldn't be half-hearted , it is HE who will decide which thing is better for you which isn't , or what you wanted and what you don't.
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